Dedicated to the Memory of My Puppy – “Princess”.
She was the most amazing dog I ever owned. She had a way making everything seem okay – even if the world was falling in around me. Just looking in those big blue eyes, feeling the unconditional love that only a dog can give, made all things work out somehow. Sometimes, when I am all alone with my thoughts is when I miss her the worst. We spent hours together walking, which is where I would do most of my thinking. I would have entire conversations with her during those walks. I know it seems crazy, but sometimes I feel her with me.
Deep down I know that she is in a far better place, no suffering, no pain. But God I miss her so much. I told Deb that someday I wanted another one who looked just like her; she reminded me that no other dog could replace her, and that I should NOT set my expectations around finding “another Princess“. She is of course right, I can never bring her back, every dog has their own unique traits and character. I suppose the best I can do is wait until I find another puppy who needs love, then set the my expectations around just loving them back, looking for the unique traits that they may have (or not), and love them for the things that make them special (in their own way) to me. Adapt to the way they fit into my life and not the other way around, (since in reality that is how it really works anyway no matter what like to think).
In the end, dogs have a way of completing the other half us – perhaps filling a void deep in our souls which people cannot fill. They allow us to see ourselves though another set of eyes, a different lens – They are always prepared to listen, and they never, ever judge us. Giving your heart to a dog is not a selfish thing; rather – for me, there is little choice. You either feel it or you don’t. I guess despite the pain when it comes time to say goodbye, giving my love to animal is an unselfish act – God gives me the strength to do it over and over again. I like to think they are put in lives for a reason. I know the time Princess spent in my life may have been short, I would not trade it for anything in this world. I hope and I pray that I am given the opportunity to love that way again:)
To read more about Princess, please visit my post – Saying Goodbye to My Best Friend.